Heading out to case the promise land

I don't even know. I mean, Rufus is just--it's upsetting on a character level, and on a WTF show why are you doing that level! I have been trying to write out a thing, but it always just comes back to no black guys survive, and, in particular, we have yet to see a random person of the week be a guy of colour and walk away at the end. Fix it, show. Seriously.

this is also why I will never love Castiel, and sometimes still kind of hate him. I am fine with this show centring on Sam and Dean, and they are obviously not going to die until the end. I am equally fine with Bobby staying around, because he's been there since the start, and I honestly just do not want them to have the angst of losing him. I have had all the angst I can deal with, thank you. But Castiel does not need to be there, and he is like a neon sign screaming that this is the show for the pretty white dudes. If he had been killed off at the end of S5, it would be much harder to see Rufus's death as anything but the inevitable consequence of not being Sam, Dean or Bobby on this show. As it is, it's hard to see it as anything but the inevitable consequence of being a black guy on this show. Ugh.

That said, it was awesome on a Sam and Dean level. I mean, properly awesome. They were Sam and Dean! They were mutually protective! Sam had Dean on his phone as just D, and for some reason, I find this to be the most adorable thing in the world. They trusted each other (Sam doesn't really need to remember what Samuel did. He just needs to know what Dean says he did, and that's enough for him to believe Dean's right. Dean listens to Sam and doesn't kill him, just like in Croatoan.) And that bit where Sam is all, "We find him alive, or I put a bullet in your head." So hot, and just--BOYS! You are just as crazy and codependent as you ever were.

And then, at the end, Dean turned the pattern of the last couple of weeks around and told Sam exactly what he needed to hear. Sam has been all, "I'm staying! I pick you!" and Dean hasn't entirely returned the favour. But he did this week, by being all, "It doesn't matter what you did! I love you!" And it's not that he's pretending it didn't happen. He's just saying they can put it behind them. And I don't care that Bobby was with them; that conversation was for Sam. And I loved it.

So, yeah. There were issues, and the Sam and Dean stuff was exactly what I wanted. It's...frustrating, and also happy-making.